The first day of the rest of my life.

So yesterday was like being hit in the face by a wrecking ball. My boyfriend broke up with me. Sad story, yes.

I don't understand why we butt heads so much, and over the stupid crap at that. I mean, I love him with all my heart and I know that he loves me too. I just wish we could get back to the place we were at when our relationship started over 9 months ago. We both do stupid shit, but why? That's what I have yet to understand.

Anywho, we broke up. That's that. Now today is like getting into a completely new routine. I'm lost, I don't know what to do with myself. I have nobody to text or to talk to about my day so far like I have had for so long. I want to pick up my phone and ask him, "How's your day going babe?"...but I can't. Its very depressing.

Speaking of depression....I've decided that once my Celexa runs out, I am no longer going to take it. I'm not going to be an emotionally controlled robot. We all have feelings and emotions that we express for a reason. I don't want mine voided anymore. I want to feel happiness and love, and even sadness, but as the rest of the world does. Plus, it might help me with my anger problems.

So now today, I will step back into the light with my head held high. I will be happy....because I deserve that. No matter what happens in the future, I just need to be happy.

Oi, wish me luck...